I’m turning upside down again

I’m swimming downstream flapping fins

But every time I get fatigued

I start to turn upside down again

The universe looks a bit crooked now

To not waste time, a sacred vow

I distinctly said I won’t allow

but now

I’m standing on the sky

Wish I knew why

 

I won’t wave a white flag

I won’t

You’re wrong you see

Displaying bright bringing about your growl

I’m not afraid

I’m uninterested and you can’t fool me

My wings extend out wide magnificent purple and blue

I’m flying high through rainbows

You can’t catch me

I’m too quick 

Flying past you, skimming you

You’re stumped and confused, spinning in circles

It’s going to end for you

In your dark brown room

You all alone tangled in your mind

Strings stopping you from moving

Not knowing what to do.

I’ll be above 

And it won’t matter

Anymore

I’ve been in flight

enjoying the scenery

but now

it’s time

to come back

to reality

where monsters sit

as they see fit

ready to pounce

as waiting mounts

embedded but ready

I’ll fight steady

I’ll be clever

with their endeavor

I’ll claw and I’ll bite

get me they might

they, with their crown

but really a clown

with frown
I’m bound

will astound

I’m ready.

 

 

 

Babycakes, it’s been a while

Don’t think that I don’t think about you and us

You’re there, I’m here, and now we’re here

working, eating, keeping, carousing, deciding,

flying, and biting

whatever’s in our way

remember when we used to play

remember when we’d spend the day

competing, boxing, spinning, kicking

drinking, talking, walking, eating

Mary Ellen and her triple threat ways

Serina’s class was the bomb those days

“Lift heavier!” said Dejinira smiling,

every single Saturday…

showing up hangover and all

we fought, we did, we did it all

Those coffee days, the breakfast wakes

our little spats like sisters would

bringing it back like you know we could

remember when

Back in the day

 

 

 

 

 

It’s flight time,

Heart pounding, skipping, pounding

Cornered, accepting the circumstance

I do my best

remain calm

It’s just me

Are they rooting for me?

not sure

or waiting for the ultimate failure

Stay positive, decisive

Be definitive in your answer

If you don’t believe

they won’t either

stay calm

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We measure by likes
and comments
our love is measured
like many mini tests

As children
we are taught to measure
love
You feed me,
you sit with me
When we are sick
our accomplishments
our sorrows
and in that instance
you are not there
we suffer.
We feel
unloved.
We don’t need presents
or anything else.

Extravagance
means nothing in place
of love.

Measured
kisses
Measured
hugs
Measured
touch

You can’t see me I know
when you look at me
it’s through me
not at me
I was there
waiting
for attention
but it went else where
I know
I should be used to it
I know
I tried to be more important
But I can’t
and it’s devastating
when you can’t win
That’s all I got left
There’s always
someone better
If I was the best
then maybe
just maybe
you’d look at
ME
not through me

It’s late my friend

why are you here, asking, bringing, leaving me in such a state

wondering what’s to be,

what is my fate

it’s comfortable here, safe and unsafe, my bed is made

calm and stormy

bright and dark in every right

my bed is made, it’s meant to be

it’s good tonight, the light is bright, and we are here but far away

it’s right, no fight, nor edge tonight

don’t disagree, just make it light

we laughed tonight, we got it right,

it’s not so bad, it’s not so mad,

don’t listen to me when I am weak

it doesn’t make sense to you or me

I don’t really need to be free.